the world is changing

I wish everyday i can change into better person. I tried and hoping Allah grant me to be a good wife and daughter. Sometimes people is so used to the old attitude and dont get the fact other is changing. But its okay. Its a norm. I should try and try more and convince people. If it is a good thing for sure good in return as well. This is not a resolution but its an aim.

i still dont get it

Why people smoke? I need somebody to tell me the logic behind it.
1. Smokers are smelly. I just hate the smell.
2. Smoke suffocate me. Go away.
3. Its a waste of money. Full stop.
4. Obviously effecting your health. Do i need to tell more? Why suffer if you can choose a better way?
5. Its hard to stop so why even start?

1st month

We are adapting to each other. Its kind of weird to be honest. But its a blissful feeling. I know things are moving too fast for you. You just came back and tadaa we are in serious relationship. But not to worry you will be just fine.
Much love dear husband.

you are a lady

You cannot whine, they think you are ungrateful.
You cant express your feeling, they feel you are complaining.
You cant compare because you have none to be compared to.
You are not someone to grant permission, you born to nod.
Things sometimes getting in your way and you need to accept, and dont think vice versa.

do you know why?

Engineering is not an easy but not too hard thing to learn or to work in. Things are easily changing with logic mindset as well as with development of technology. All in all i love my job but still i keep looking opportunity to retire early or somehow quit in the middle of way. Somehow sometimes it just feel disconnection between what i want to do and what i love to do. Apparently now i want to do the things that i dont love to do. To make things more complicated im doing it for someone who is a bit bossy and pushy but somehow i love the challenge. This is not a complaint notes. This is to make me think that not all what i want i can get it in life, and the truth, by playing along with life i get my real satisfaction. Satisfaction to the job that i cursed everyday. Thinking back, it is not that bad. And i keep continuing cursing and working at same time. Mom always said we need to be sincere with works. Im sincere, cursing and working. Will that do?

new life

i am a wife. i am a wife. yes i am a wife.
so cool huh?
haha. im becoming to laugh at myself?
why?
i dont believe this? - am starting to believe this.
isnt it what i want? - yes of course.
so am i happy? - totally. cant stop smiling.
i must be crazy at this moment. crazy happy and unbelieveable.
yeah im so dramatic. haha.
ok fine....

but still....



IM A WIFE!
:)))))

after ten years celebration..

i called this as my eternal happiness. with two lafaz, we became one.
today im counting two more days towards 2 months anniversary.
thank you for choosing me as your other half.
much love dear husband.