do you know why?

Engineering is not an easy but not too hard thing to learn or to work in. Things are easily changing with logic mindset as well as with development of technology. All in all i love my job but still i keep looking opportunity to retire early or somehow quit in the middle of way. Somehow sometimes it just feel disconnection between what i want to do and what i love to do. Apparently now i want to do the things that i dont love to do. To make things more complicated im doing it for someone who is a bit bossy and pushy but somehow i love the challenge. This is not a complaint notes. This is to make me think that not all what i want i can get it in life, and the truth, by playing along with life i get my real satisfaction. Satisfaction to the job that i cursed everyday. Thinking back, it is not that bad. And i keep continuing cursing and working at same time. Mom always said we need to be sincere with works. Im sincere, cursing and working. Will that do?