1.00 a.m
kenapa tak tidur?
kan dh lewat.
niat di hati nak tulis laporan bulanan
tiba2 ada kawan ajak borak
jadi layankan aja
seronok juga berborak..
cite2 psl kehidupan.
Stay calm,life is not so bad towards you. One thing at a time. First step:success in the career.Feeling pleased with myself, and satisfied with it. Next step:Just wait and pray!
oh ini tindak balas terhadap post yg sebelum ini.
LAUGH AS MUCH AS YOU BREATH, AND LOVE AS LONG AS YOU LIVE.
I LOVE YOU ENCIK D! opps, terlebey sudah!
ahh lu pikirlah sendiri
shud i smile or what? :)
gheee, nway thanks for the concern dude! will do it, later , maybe..depends...
and, im doing just fine now!
heee...
byk betol kene censored..tp rasa2 sape yg terasa pedas,dia lah yg makan cili nya, dan dia lah yg memberi nasihat itu, terima kasih daun keladi kawan!
its a bliss to have concern people surround you, ya im so thankful!!
xoxo
i need to post this!
today is the most hilarious of all, the most fascinating, wonderful, and made my day even more brighter! :)
eh kenapa status kt friendster nie tak sama dgn kt facebook?
ish, harus ku tuka ni.!!
biar consistent skek (engineer kene consistent dlm kerja nya)
haa, kan baru betul tu...
Unexpectedly....
dan segala pesanan melalui Yahoo Messanger yg di terima..yang berbaur pertanyaan...1H 4W's..
Oh ya!
Terima kasih kawan2 sbb terlalu concern, suke sgt...
tapi sebenarnya...
Niat di hati bukan nak buat drama
mahupun bergaduh dgn Encik D
CUma..
nak samakan FB dan FS
hidup kene consistent..
hehe
maaf la yer menimbulkan huru hara kpd sesetengah pihak
Cheers~~
-ana-
eh kenapa status kt friendster nie tak sama dgn kt facebook?
ish, harus ku tuka ni.!!
biar consistent skek (engineer kene consistent dlm kerja nya)
haa, kan baru betul tu...Unexpectedly....
dan segala pesanan melalui Yahoo Messanger yg di terima..yang berbaur pertanyaan...1H 4W's..Oh ya!
Terima kasih kawan2 sbb terlalu concern, suke sgt...
tapi sebenarnya...
Niat di hati bukan nak buat drama
mahupun bergaduh dgn Encik D
CUma..
nak samakan FB dan FS
hidup kene consistent..
hehe
maaf la yer menimbulkan huru hara kpd sesetengah pihak
Cheers~~
-ana-
how does it feels?
oil price drops again...down to USD40 per bbl, or even below that..(which i use USD 35 for my case study)..
aih, ilang lah bonus tahun nie kan? itu je yg sy pikir ke?
nope, i dont want to talk about the oil price globally, but look at it in very tiny scope, at my own company..not even petronas, carigali itself.oil price is dropping, but then evrything else is still at a high amount (the steel, manpower, services..bla bla)...and mathematically speaking, we will have unprofitable project. and maybe we dont have our own money to kick start a project. what will happen then? LU PIKIRLAH SENDIRI -nabil.
i remember once, the Chairman of Sudan Operation, lets call him by Mr N , stated that Carigali is at its loss, dont have enough CAPEX, and what we have to offer to the others partners(since im in J-O-C )? Our Own Technical Skills! and that is why you guys, the young engineers have to undergone so-called ACD program, to accelerate everything, and be on track like those who already experince, like whootttt whoottt... sume mereka tlh berpengalaman macam 10-15 tahun kot..gosh!
okey, enuff bout works..buat saya pusing sahaja..
taken @ OSLO, hehe,bukan saya yg pergi oke...
i was being soooo stupid just now, oh lupe nak bagitahu ini cerita lain...
around 430 pm, i received a call from the acting boss(bila boss sebenar takde ade la stand in boss, iaitu di panggil bos berlakon, ataupun nak lebih canggih dlm English acting boss la)..
then i was like, Oh-okey...
dgn gembiranya, sy pulang ke rumah, rasa rimas pulak pakai baju kerja, jam br 5.15 ptg, rasa cm sempat tuka baju nie, so sy pun tuka la baju utk ke meeting...
kawan dah telefon, jum turun katanya...
segera sy keluar, menekan butang lif untuk ke G
berjalan dgn pantas , dan kemudian tibalah di bilik mesyuarat...
YA ALLAH, KENAPALAH AKU NIE BENGAP SANGAT? MALU NYE.....
yes, everybody was like, soooooo formal, with tie and office attire, plus with socks ok!
and what am i?
i was the only lady, wearing a jeans, with a buruk-black t-shirt, and a SELIPAR ok!
and guess what?
the PRESIDENT was there!!!!
whooottttttttttttttttttttt~~~~~~~~
-the end-(dlm hati, matilah penampilan buruk aku ini)
aih, ilang lah bonus tahun nie kan? itu je yg sy pikir ke?
nope, i dont want to talk about the oil price globally, but look at it in very tiny scope, at my own company..not even petronas, carigali itself.oil price is dropping, but then evrything else is still at a high amount (the steel, manpower, services..bla bla)...and mathematically speaking, we will have unprofitable project. and maybe we dont have our own money to kick start a project. what will happen then? LU PIKIRLAH SENDIRI -nabil.
i remember once, the Chairman of Sudan Operation, lets call him by Mr N , stated that Carigali is at its loss, dont have enough CAPEX, and what we have to offer to the others partners(since im in J-O-C )? Our Own Technical Skills! and that is why you guys, the young engineers have to undergone so-called ACD program, to accelerate everything, and be on track like those who already experince, like whootttt whoottt... sume mereka tlh berpengalaman macam 10-15 tahun kot..gosh!
okey, enuff bout works..buat saya pusing sahaja..
taken @ OSLO, hehe,bukan saya yg pergi oke...
i was being soooo stupid just now, oh lupe nak bagitahu ini cerita lain...
around 430 pm, i received a call from the acting boss(bila boss sebenar takde ade la stand in boss, iaitu di panggil bos berlakon, ataupun nak lebih canggih dlm English acting boss la)..
A-Boss : Fuziana, ptg nie ade PAWA..
Me : PAWA? ape tu En Boss?
A-Boss:ala, mcm......(dia terhenti seketika, cari kata-kata untuk menjelaskan)
Me:mcm meeting sempoi2 ke? (sbb lepas office hours ok, sbb itu sy igt sempoi2)
A-Boss: a ah lebey krg la, nt u dtg kol 530 ok (see i told u, after office hours ok)
Me : PAWA? ape tu En Boss?
A-Boss:ala, mcm......(dia terhenti seketika, cari kata-kata untuk menjelaskan)
Me:mcm meeting sempoi2 ke? (sbb lepas office hours ok, sbb itu sy igt sempoi2)
A-Boss: a ah lebey krg la, nt u dtg kol 530 ok (see i told u, after office hours ok)
then i was like, Oh-okey...
dgn gembiranya, sy pulang ke rumah, rasa rimas pulak pakai baju kerja, jam br 5.15 ptg, rasa cm sempat tuka baju nie, so sy pun tuka la baju utk ke meeting...
kawan dah telefon, jum turun katanya...
segera sy keluar, menekan butang lif untuk ke G
berjalan dgn pantas , dan kemudian tibalah di bilik mesyuarat...
YA ALLAH, KENAPALAH AKU NIE BENGAP SANGAT? MALU NYE.....
yes, everybody was like, soooooo formal, with tie and office attire, plus with socks ok!
and what am i?
i was the only lady, wearing a jeans, with a buruk-black t-shirt, and a SELIPAR ok!
and guess what?
the PRESIDENT was there!!!!
whooottttttttttttttttttttt~~~~~~~~
-the end-(dlm hati, matilah penampilan buruk aku ini)
im hunger of.....
i need to do some shopping! O.M.G!!
ntah mengapa, sejak dua menjak nie, sy jadi tak tentu arah. bukak pintu kanan almari, ahhh...busan...selepas itu, pintu kiri pulak jd mangsa,ahhh busan juga yang melanda hati ini..apa sebenarnya yg sy cr di kedua-dua belah almari itu? yang menjadikan sy asyik busan sy? oh ya, sebenarnya sy busan tgk baju-baju sy..sy bwk x byk pun (ye ke?)..dan sy rasa nak g shopping..nak sgt!!ALASAN UNTUK MENGHABISKAN DUIT KAN?TYPICAL ME~
and you know what i saw this afternoon? MANGO is in the town!! hell ya, khartoum ade MNG??? absolutely, eventho i didn't get to go into the shop, *because i was in the van*, since the traffic was bad, that's why i noticed the small shop..and besides it is DIESEl (ohh sy bukan nya fan diesel pun, sekadar mebuat kenyataan, terima kasih)..and i am still shocked of having MNG here..who said khartoum has nothing? well its me who said it earlier, and actually i guess i have not explore the town YET
sy yakin kwn2 sy yang lain nie pun tidak menjelajah lg wpon tlh 6 bln di sini.. sy la yg harus dan WAJIB mengheret mrk sume berjalan2 bersama sy..YES!!! (ye la mcm mane nk usya sume kedai, sdgkan kadang2 kawasan2 mcm itu, ye kawasan yg ada MNG, adidas, dan Nike adlh kawasan EXPAT, dan demostrasi ke, pengganas ke ape2 la makhluk ganjil itu suka menyerang kawasan mcm itu, jd sedikit berbahya)..
glow in the face, MNG is in town!! yay!!! but the price? well i better check it out then, even i dont have any shopaholic with me...*sigh*
dan sy masih lg tidak menjumpai tempat menjual selimut.. org2 sini tak pakai selimut ke?
I hate those memories, please erase it for me.!!i said please!!
If only I could..but sorry to say it cant be done..well maybe it can, but if you don’t wish to let go those stuffs stuck in your petty-mind, and u becoming so selfish person each day, eventually people will hate you.
Ya ya, hate hate and hateeee…….
erase the bad sector? And defrag everything?
*wish it is as easy as maintaining your system tool*sigh*
If only I could..but sorry to say it cant be done..well maybe it can, but if you don’t wish to let go those stuffs stuck in your petty-mind, and u becoming so selfish person each day, eventually people will hate you.
Ya ya, hate hate and hateeee…….
erase the bad sector? And defrag everything?
*wish it is as easy as maintaining your system tool*sigh*
ski-weekend-january-oslo.
Oslo is the capital and largest city of Norway. It is also a municipality and a county of its own. It is the third largest Scandinavian city and urban area.
The city of Oslo was established as a municipality on 3 January 1838. It was separated from the county of Akershus to become a county of its own in 1842. The rural municipality of Aker was merged with Oslo on 1 January 1948 (and simultaneously transferred from Akershus county to Oslo county). Furthermore, Oslo shares several important functions with Akershus county.
-source : Wikipedia-
kenapa saya cerita ttg oslo? ye, sbb Encik D di sana sedang bermain ski bersama kawan2 lelaki nya (tetapi mrk bukan ghey okey)..dan saya di snie kerinduan terhadap Encik D..tp SAYA OK! sungguh, Encik D jgn risau ye!! =)
p.s:jeles nye tak dpt main ski same2.....
had a dream, the weirdest one.. sumpah tak nak tido petang dah, tapi apa lg yang boleh saya buat kan??kan??
bleeding nose.
okey, gamba ini sedikit keterlaluan..
maybe its the weather.maybe my body.maybe its the dust. well i just dunno.the nose keep bleeding (but its on-off-on-off) and blood clog in the nose. ish. or maybe i just need to drink lotsa water? well maybe maybe maybe...
just b strong,b strong..strong like a log.u can overcome all this.ok.its not a big deal at all.SMILE LITTLE GIRL,JUST SMILE...just deal with it ok, no more complaints please!am i lunatics?
empty talk.
maybe i bore you.maybe i am not.
so bear with me for a minute, even for a glimpse..
there's two songs keep rewinding in my empty-mind...
and yup,that's right..BIG GIRLS DON'T CRY...and i can be happy like DANCING QUEEN..
hell ya, you don't care right? but then, that's the state im in now. so complicated and unavoidable, so bear with me again.
i don't wish to talk about politics here, i dun noe how to write it well,not even to understand them every single thing. im a grown up, and its a grown up thingy rite? bla bla bla.....
what interest me the most is sudan, and getting to noe khartoum itself. even though part of me wants to be home badly, but rationally speaking, nothing cannot be undone, thus lets just go through this. i barely know everything bout khartoum, yet...looking at the so-called-town itself, most of the names were from Arabic, and even the folks here speaking Arabic.."tamam fuziana?" "halas namshi!!" "kaifa haluki?" "ma isbuk?" the same greetings i got everyday..its kind of a good learning, i guess. haha.
this coming february will be the next chapter of my life.u remember aisha? we r planning to go to the field,here,in sudan. can u i magine it? Well, i CAN!!! i can imagine how hard it will be compared to offshore malaysia...having heard to the stories from experience ones, i guess i really need to find out the scenario myself, and have the most valuable experience once in lifetime... from khartoum to the base camp then to the rig itself, it will be the coolest (????) activity then!!! hehe... the route will be like taking the airplane to the base camp, then riding 4-wd from base camp to the onshore(rig) , passing by some native, rural, remote whatever u name it, villages. and this time around we need to be extra careful!!why? because, i might be their victim!! =p will update when it really occurred then!!
so then,today is the 3rd weekend here, will be going out to souk al-jabar(spelling???) tomorrow...to find some good clothing for dear abah,and all the men in the house. as for the ladies, i'll shop for mak,akak,long in dubai lah! lagi kool~ muahhh...
xoxo
so bear with me for a minute, even for a glimpse..
there's two songs keep rewinding in my empty-mind...
and yup,that's right..BIG GIRLS DON'T CRY...and i can be happy like DANCING QUEEN..
hell ya, you don't care right? but then, that's the state im in now. so complicated and unavoidable, so bear with me again.
i don't wish to talk about politics here, i dun noe how to write it well,not even to understand them every single thing. im a grown up, and its a grown up thingy rite? bla bla bla.....
what interest me the most is sudan, and getting to noe khartoum itself. even though part of me wants to be home badly, but rationally speaking, nothing cannot be undone, thus lets just go through this. i barely know everything bout khartoum, yet...looking at the so-called-town itself, most of the names were from Arabic, and even the folks here speaking Arabic.."tamam fuziana?" "halas namshi!!" "kaifa haluki?" "ma isbuk?" the same greetings i got everyday..its kind of a good learning, i guess. haha.
this coming february will be the next chapter of my life.u remember aisha? we r planning to go to the field,here,in sudan. can u i magine it? Well, i CAN!!! i can imagine how hard it will be compared to offshore malaysia...having heard to the stories from experience ones, i guess i really need to find out the scenario myself, and have the most valuable experience once in lifetime... from khartoum to the base camp then to the rig itself, it will be the coolest (????) activity then!!! hehe... the route will be like taking the airplane to the base camp, then riding 4-wd from base camp to the onshore(rig) , passing by some native, rural, remote whatever u name it, villages. and this time around we need to be extra careful!!why? because, i might be their victim!! =p will update when it really occurred then!!
so then,today is the 3rd weekend here, will be going out to souk al-jabar(spelling???) tomorrow...to find some good clothing for dear abah,and all the men in the house. as for the ladies, i'll shop for mak,akak,long in dubai lah! lagi kool~ muahhh...
xoxo
dreamt of sambal belacan and nasi lemak.
missed those malaysian foods~!!
why?
because it is hard to get the flavour here, even i cooked it by myself..
the taste, the look, the aroma...still not the same compared to mom's...
yesterday was daging lemak cili api...it soooo delicious,until my friend tried to korek2 the rice cooker...pathetic ass! heee...look who's cooking man~ :)
today, i dreamt of sambal belacan. wanted to do some, but no belacan here. not even the stench. hmmm, hunger for belacan~ care to help?
weekend will be nasi lemak. need the taste of those rm1.50 nasi lemak at lrt tmn melati or rm1.70 at lvl 17,tower 2(even tho i only tried once)..and the feeling of having it back then @ home! sy homesick ke nie?? well, i dont think so..
why?
because it is hard to get the flavour here, even i cooked it by myself..
the taste, the look, the aroma...still not the same compared to mom's...
yesterday was daging lemak cili api...it soooo delicious,until my friend tried to korek2 the rice cooker...pathetic ass! heee...look who's cooking man~ :)
today, i dreamt of sambal belacan. wanted to do some, but no belacan here. not even the stench. hmmm, hunger for belacan~ care to help?
weekend will be nasi lemak. need the taste of those rm1.50 nasi lemak at lrt tmn melati or rm1.70 at lvl 17,tower 2(even tho i only tried once)..and the feeling of having it back then @ home! sy homesick ke nie?? well, i dont think so..
how?
sy semakin hari semakin rs tidak bijak.
bukan nya bijak dr segi minda.
bijak la.
begini,saya seorang shj perempuan 20-an di sini.
di pejabat, sy sorang shj perempuan melayu dan malaysian.
dan di tpt tinggal sy pulak, sy seorang jugak yg 20-an.
rata2 yg lain suma dh berkahwain.
dan membawa keluarga masing2.
tp ada juga yg x bawa familt dan bersendirian, ttp mcm tidak masuk la plak.
sy dh mencuba sehabis mungkin
ttp susah juga.
sy tny sepatah dia jwb sepatah.
sy bingung.
sy cm kanak2 sgt ke?tak jugak sy rasa. sy rasa dh berkelakuan dewasa sungguh.
di pejabat pulak, sumenye pekerja lelaki yg dh di kira tahap dewa nye senior, dr segi usia dan ilmu.
ilmu tak mengapalah, sy boleh blaja dr mereka satru per satu.
tp sy agak sedikit sukar untuk bergaul.
mcm ade sesetengah yg ok je, bole borak dgn sesuka hatinya.
tp lg mslh yg same, sesetengah jwb satu shj bile saya satu.dua dia jwb dua lah.
aih.
mcm mane sbnanye ye?
bukan nya bijak dr segi minda.
bijak la.
begini,saya seorang shj perempuan 20-an di sini.
di pejabat, sy sorang shj perempuan melayu dan malaysian.
dan di tpt tinggal sy pulak, sy seorang jugak yg 20-an.
rata2 yg lain suma dh berkahwain.
dan membawa keluarga masing2.
tp ada juga yg x bawa familt dan bersendirian, ttp mcm tidak masuk la plak.
sy dh mencuba sehabis mungkin
ttp susah juga.
sy tny sepatah dia jwb sepatah.
sy bingung.
sy cm kanak2 sgt ke?tak jugak sy rasa. sy rasa dh berkelakuan dewasa sungguh.
di pejabat pulak, sumenye pekerja lelaki yg dh di kira tahap dewa nye senior, dr segi usia dan ilmu.
ilmu tak mengapalah, sy boleh blaja dr mereka satru per satu.
tp sy agak sedikit sukar untuk bergaul.
mcm ade sesetengah yg ok je, bole borak dgn sesuka hatinya.
tp lg mslh yg same, sesetengah jwb satu shj bile saya satu.dua dia jwb dua lah.
aih.
mcm mane sbnanye ye?
hey wake up and smell te coffee~
When I was 3, i aimed for the best. I used to teach a lot to my dolls, initially. Looking at my ambitious in educating the “people”, my mom brought me a whiteboard(or so called blackboard) and chalks with different colors. Yippieee yay!!! With the new teaching stuffs, now I can asked my friends to come over my house, and do the learning together. With the rotan (abah’s) in hand, I used all my strength to share my knowledge with the kids, same age with me.. but dun forget, I was only 3, what laa can u share @ age 3?hii..maybe some ridiculous drawings..and A B C!
Talking bout A B C, I cant remember exactly when I started to learn it, (mayb during my time in mother’s womb..hehe..bijaknya sy!!)..the only thing remain fresh and will always b in memory, is how hard to learn and pronounce a letter R. hahaha…. Thank god, abah and long didn’t give up to teach me that haunted letter… hihi…(sy ada sejarah hitam sebenarnye dgn huruf R ini, ttp malulah sy nk cerita di snie)..
I taught I could be an architect afterwards. I hate teacher after entering primary school, that’s how I tot of being architect. My drawing was being praised one day, and I taught im supercool and supercreative. So many taughts back then. Hehe. I took up drawing classes, joined lotsa competitions (and I did win ok!)…but somehow, all the creativeness inside me seems to lost..when I saw someone else can drew very nice picture than me, I totally give up then! (oke, masa nie primary school kot, sy tidak mempunyai keazaman yg terlalu tinggi…jadi cita2 utk menjadi arkitek berjaya musnah begitu sahaja)..
And now im an engineer. Don’t ask me how I got up to this stage, from wanted being a teacher to supercool architect and end up (maybe) being an engineer in O&G. well, its too hard to say it, but all I can tell is because I like chemistry (during my schooling time) soo muchhhh…..but hey, chemical students are no geek oke and we are not nerdy (at least me, the rest I dunno =p)
If u asked me now, is engineer really a good job for me? Well, financially YES!! Apart from that, its empty cause as the age is increasing, I just wish to be a good housewife, and can really cook well for my family.. suci kan niat hati sy? =)
Talking bout A B C, I cant remember exactly when I started to learn it, (mayb during my time in mother’s womb..hehe..bijaknya sy!!)..the only thing remain fresh and will always b in memory, is how hard to learn and pronounce a letter R. hahaha…. Thank god, abah and long didn’t give up to teach me that haunted letter… hihi…(sy ada sejarah hitam sebenarnye dgn huruf R ini, ttp malulah sy nk cerita di snie)..
I taught I could be an architect afterwards. I hate teacher after entering primary school, that’s how I tot of being architect. My drawing was being praised one day, and I taught im supercool and supercreative. So many taughts back then. Hehe. I took up drawing classes, joined lotsa competitions (and I did win ok!)…but somehow, all the creativeness inside me seems to lost..when I saw someone else can drew very nice picture than me, I totally give up then! (oke, masa nie primary school kot, sy tidak mempunyai keazaman yg terlalu tinggi…jadi cita2 utk menjadi arkitek berjaya musnah begitu sahaja)..
And now im an engineer. Don’t ask me how I got up to this stage, from wanted being a teacher to supercool architect and end up (maybe) being an engineer in O&G. well, its too hard to say it, but all I can tell is because I like chemistry (during my schooling time) soo muchhhh…..but hey, chemical students are no geek oke and we are not nerdy (at least me, the rest I dunno =p)
If u asked me now, is engineer really a good job for me? Well, financially YES!! Apart from that, its empty cause as the age is increasing, I just wish to be a good housewife, and can really cook well for my family.. suci kan niat hati sy? =)
mengomel.
i never want to talk about Encik D here..that was my intention initially..
because, things are so private and personal.and its better to keep em in me.
but recently i did talk a lot bout Encik D right?oh gosh.i hope he doesnt even read this, not even remembering my blog's name."i just dunt like my private life being publicize"he said once. sy rasa mcm artis pulak.
why do we need a man by our side?if we do is just complaining all the time?maybe my expectation is too high, and too deep? well, maybe. or for sure. i guess, he is perfect, no doubt. so caring, so much love around, and b there for me. so what the hell are you complaining about?if i were to answer the question raised by myself, i would rather make it in silence. why?because there are certain things which i shouldn't say it out loud, just hoping everybody to nod, and pretend to understand. got it?
some "pesanan":-
sy rasa nanti satu hari sy ingin menulis surat la kepada kawan2 saya...rasa macam seronok pulak..menulis umthing ttp tidak smpai pada empunya diri...kan mcm syok sendiri itu..hehe
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peristiwa kelakar :
dat day i was invited to come over a house, a kakak and abang who will be going back to malaysia for good.(gosh i wish i am that person, but nvm, i will survive!!).. oke...the family is really a kind hearted one, and that day was the day of giving away their old-but-still-useable items to me. and the kakak was like, "umm ambil je ape yg awak nak ambil"..and i was like"ye ke?"(smbil mengutip2 segala makanan2 yg dia ade, all those cereals, sos cili (since kt snie TAKDE sos cili), and everything that i could carry with my two hands)...and added a rack of those-tiny-container for the stuffy that u add-in in cookings...im sooo excited and thrilled!!!... with handful, i started to make my way back to my own apartment...and the ending conversation was like this:
fuhh, dengan pantas sy cuba menggelakkan keadaan yg amat menggusarkan itu. how come i did mention that? well, the belly looks like a preggy one, but hey, she's not pregnant ok!! i repeat, NO GROWING FETUS IN THE TUMMY!! and i dun even dare to look upon that Kak **** face, ahhh malu sangatt!! (ke sy yg dh malukan dia??)
how did that spilled out from my mouth??
****&*^%$##%@&^* feeling inside...
all i can do now is....HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA
xoxo
because, things are so private and personal.and its better to keep em in me.
but recently i did talk a lot bout Encik D right?oh gosh.i hope he doesnt even read this, not even remembering my blog's name."i just dunt like my private life being publicize"he said once. sy rasa mcm artis pulak.
why do we need a man by our side?if we do is just complaining all the time?maybe my expectation is too high, and too deep? well, maybe. or for sure. i guess, he is perfect, no doubt. so caring, so much love around, and b there for me. so what the hell are you complaining about?if i were to answer the question raised by myself, i would rather make it in silence. why?because there are certain things which i shouldn't say it out loud, just hoping everybody to nod, and pretend to understand. got it?
some "pesanan":-
to mr slasher ec (if u come across my blog): tengok aku mumble menda merepek2 kan dalam blog, so does this includes in thinking,reflecting,and writing? hehe...
to tisha: i miss u,noona. when can i ever c u again? i guess end of year kan. make sure kite punye plan utk ke NZ menjadi yer syg!
to lina:gosh, everything seems wrong when u r not around, even my laughter is gone.gone with the dryness in the air. and i am suffering for not spending my money and time with a shopaholic like u. sob~sob
sy rasa nanti satu hari sy ingin menulis surat la kepada kawan2 saya...rasa macam seronok pulak..menulis umthing ttp tidak smpai pada empunya diri...kan mcm syok sendiri itu..hehe
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peristiwa kelakar :
dat day i was invited to come over a house, a kakak and abang who will be going back to malaysia for good.(gosh i wish i am that person, but nvm, i will survive!!).. oke...the family is really a kind hearted one, and that day was the day of giving away their old-but-still-useable items to me. and the kakak was like, "umm ambil je ape yg awak nak ambil"..and i was like"ye ke?"(smbil mengutip2 segala makanan2 yg dia ade, all those cereals, sos cili (since kt snie TAKDE sos cili), and everything that i could carry with my two hands)...and added a rack of those-tiny-container for the stuffy that u add-in in cookings...im sooo excited and thrilled!!!... with handful, i started to make my way back to my own apartment...and the ending conversation was like this:
Ana : thanks Kak **** (nama dirahsiakan), semoga selamat balik ke malaysia...(sambil waving2 ke arah ABg E and he gave me two thumbs up..cayalah bro!!!)..
Kak ****:oke, selamat masak2..
Ana add some more(kunun2 to be very2 friendly la):and akak, selamat bersalin...
Kak ****:oh nie(smbil usap2 perut dia)..tak lah...
Ana:oh tak ke...(sengih2 kerang busuk)..ok kak, bye2
Kak ****:oke, selamat masak2..
Ana add some more(kunun2 to be very2 friendly la):and akak, selamat bersalin...
Kak ****:oh nie(smbil usap2 perut dia)..tak lah...
Ana:oh tak ke...(sengih2 kerang busuk)..ok kak, bye2
fuhh, dengan pantas sy cuba menggelakkan keadaan yg amat menggusarkan itu. how come i did mention that? well, the belly looks like a preggy one, but hey, she's not pregnant ok!! i repeat, NO GROWING FETUS IN THE TUMMY!! and i dun even dare to look upon that Kak **** face, ahhh malu sangatt!! (ke sy yg dh malukan dia??)
how did that spilled out from my mouth??
****&*^%$##%@&^* feeling inside...
all i can do now is....HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA
xoxo
nuisance me.
APPRECIATE SGT.
but sometimes, i tends to favor my own heart, without acknowledging others.
how silly me.
dun get mad.
i never meant to.
my intention was only to have someone to listen to all my pot pet pot pet, and just simply sympathy @ me.
but its nobody's fault.
iam just too nuisance.
and sometimes too hard to be understood.
dun get mad.
changing for better, and will try to avoid those unnecessary complaints.
:)
happy weekends peeps~(tomorrow is already a working day for me. berusahalah!!)
...
saya homesick.
saya tak tahu nak ckp dgn sape.
kalau sy ckp dgn Encik D.."u yg nak pergi kan.""saba je la".
tp betol la ape dia ckp, dis is what i wanted, opportunity once in lifetime.everybody considered me as the lucky swan,and look highly upon me.
tapi....sebenarnya, sy homesick sgt ENcik D.kdg2 saya nanges dlm hati je.sbb sy tkt nk bgtau Encik.dan Encik pn sndri d perantauan. x nak la buat encik runsing.
tp sy masih homesick.
god knows why.
im yet to adapt in this small community, and dun take eveything personally,mcm Encik D ckp.
tp sy masih homesick.
dan terus bersedih.
hmmm.
only here where i post my true feelings.
and i miss my mom.
saya tak tahu nak ckp dgn sape.
kalau sy ckp dgn Encik D.."u yg nak pergi kan.""saba je la".
tp betol la ape dia ckp, dis is what i wanted, opportunity once in lifetime.everybody considered me as the lucky swan,and look highly upon me.
tapi....sebenarnya, sy homesick sgt ENcik D.kdg2 saya nanges dlm hati je.sbb sy tkt nk bgtau Encik.dan Encik pn sndri d perantauan. x nak la buat encik runsing.
tp sy masih homesick.
god knows why.
im yet to adapt in this small community, and dun take eveything personally,mcm Encik D ckp.
tp sy masih homesick.
dan terus bersedih.
hmmm.
only here where i post my true feelings.
and i miss my mom.
tunggu.
i hate to wait.
really HATE waiting.
why do i have to wait all time?
haih.
wait is a big subject.
wait to go back to malaysia,wait for the "hepp" guys to go and eat (wpon sy tlh lapa sgt),wait fr the house key(stupid thing!!%#*&)..etc...
and most important is to wait the dearest one.dun mind,cause love is everywhere.i will just wait.here.and nowhere.tp kadang2 sy benci jugak menunggu yang ini.
hehe.jiwang plak.
snap few pictures @solitaire.
uploaded in my fb d.
ok.mau layan gossip girl d youtube kerna tidak boleh menggunakan bit torrent d negara ini sambil menunggu Encik D. (kan tunggu lg kan? but as i said, i dun mind, love is everywhere. hehe)
love,
ana
really HATE waiting.
why do i have to wait all time?
haih.
wait is a big subject.
wait to go back to malaysia,wait for the "hepp" guys to go and eat (wpon sy tlh lapa sgt),wait fr the house key(stupid thing!!%#*&)..etc...
and most important is to wait the dearest one.dun mind,cause love is everywhere.i will just wait.here.and nowhere.tp kadang2 sy benci jugak menunggu yang ini.
hehe.jiwang plak.
snap few pictures @solitaire.
uploaded in my fb d.
ok.mau layan gossip girl d youtube kerna tidak boleh menggunakan bit torrent d negara ini sambil menunggu Encik D. (kan tunggu lg kan? but as i said, i dun mind, love is everywhere. hehe)
love,
ana
observation~
did i spelled the title corectlY? yeah i think i did...hihi...
what did i learnt about sudanese people? (hope there's no sudanese reading this, so to avoid any future misleading understanding, baik sy bercakap dlm bahasa malaysia)...
1) mereka ini sangat2 la peramah, kdg2 terlebih peramah pun ada. sy igt lg pertama kali sy dtg ke ofis, wahh sangat meriah sambutan mereka...mereka ini jenis jupe kawan2 tak kira sama keturunan ke, warna kulit ke, mereka akan tetap bersalaman, dan berpeluk2 an..ttp itu sesama jantina sahaja la, ttp jika berlainan jantina mrk ttp bersalaman.
2) mereka sgt patuh dgn waktu solat. tiap kali masuk waktu solat, mrk akan mengajak sy utk pergi solat bersama. utk zuhur pula, akan ada tilawah dahulu setiap hari, ssh sy nak melepaskan diri.tp 2-3 hari nie saya berjaya, sbb sy mmg banyak sgt kerja dan sangat la mustahak. yay~ hehe.
3) mereka nie jenis berkongsi semua menda, x kira la ilmu,makanan,telefon,krim tangan,apa2 sahaja la yg bole dikongsi akan dikongsi bersama. sy bukanlah tak mahu ambil krim tgn yg mereka tawarkan,tp baunya aneh. tp utk menjaga hati, sy ambil dan pakai juga la..sedikit je sy ambil (lepastu sy ke toilet utk mencuci tgn dgn sabun, hehe..ilang sdh bau aneh di tgn)
4) pemandu sy bawak van masyaALLAH, hanya tuhan je yg tahu. sy rasa dia tak tahu menekan pedal minyak itu dgn sebaik2 nya, hanya tahu menekan sehingga abis, dan bila ada kereta di depan yg berhenti secara mengejut mula lah dia buat aksi stunt (eh ape stunt dlm BM?)..ahh abaikan...dan kemudian naik ke bahu jalan...aih, sakit jantung sy dibuatnya ari2..sy hanya mampu mengucap shj tiap kali naik van dia...
5) mereka ini cakap sgt la kuat, mcm la saya sebatu ..eh tidak 1018918 batu jauh nya dari mrk...sangat la bingit telinga sy hari2..dan pula sy tertinggal headset di rumah (eh apa itu headset?)....terpaksa la saya membuat2 telinga sudah pekak....
itu saja kot yg dpt sy pikirkan....nt kalau ade tambahan sy bgtau ye...
oh tonight we'll be having dinner @ solitaire, the-one-so-happening here... i maybe have the chance to snap something tonight..will post it when i have one!!
saya dan bilik yg sangat bersepah2..hihi
till then~~
muah2......
what did i learnt about sudanese people? (hope there's no sudanese reading this, so to avoid any future misleading understanding, baik sy bercakap dlm bahasa malaysia)...
1) mereka ini sangat2 la peramah, kdg2 terlebih peramah pun ada. sy igt lg pertama kali sy dtg ke ofis, wahh sangat meriah sambutan mereka...mereka ini jenis jupe kawan2 tak kira sama keturunan ke, warna kulit ke, mereka akan tetap bersalaman, dan berpeluk2 an..ttp itu sesama jantina sahaja la, ttp jika berlainan jantina mrk ttp bersalaman.
2) mereka sgt patuh dgn waktu solat. tiap kali masuk waktu solat, mrk akan mengajak sy utk pergi solat bersama. utk zuhur pula, akan ada tilawah dahulu setiap hari, ssh sy nak melepaskan diri.tp 2-3 hari nie saya berjaya, sbb sy mmg banyak sgt kerja dan sangat la mustahak. yay~ hehe.
3) mereka nie jenis berkongsi semua menda, x kira la ilmu,makanan,telefon,krim tangan,apa2 sahaja la yg bole dikongsi akan dikongsi bersama. sy bukanlah tak mahu ambil krim tgn yg mereka tawarkan,tp baunya aneh. tp utk menjaga hati, sy ambil dan pakai juga la..sedikit je sy ambil (lepastu sy ke toilet utk mencuci tgn dgn sabun, hehe..ilang sdh bau aneh di tgn)
4) pemandu sy bawak van masyaALLAH, hanya tuhan je yg tahu. sy rasa dia tak tahu menekan pedal minyak itu dgn sebaik2 nya, hanya tahu menekan sehingga abis, dan bila ada kereta di depan yg berhenti secara mengejut mula lah dia buat aksi stunt (eh ape stunt dlm BM?)..ahh abaikan...dan kemudian naik ke bahu jalan...aih, sakit jantung sy dibuatnya ari2..sy hanya mampu mengucap shj tiap kali naik van dia...
5) mereka ini cakap sgt la kuat, mcm la saya sebatu ..eh tidak 1018918 batu jauh nya dari mrk...sangat la bingit telinga sy hari2..dan pula sy tertinggal headset di rumah (eh apa itu headset?)....terpaksa la saya membuat2 telinga sudah pekak....
itu saja kot yg dpt sy pikirkan....nt kalau ade tambahan sy bgtau ye...
oh tonight we'll be having dinner @ solitaire, the-one-so-happening here... i maybe have the chance to snap something tonight..will post it when i have one!!
saya dan bilik yg sangat bersepah2..hihi
till then~~
muah2......
when are you coming home?
haish....already 1023pm , 723pm in dublin..
x payah la tunggu kan?
its better for me to have my nap, and watching korea drama till asleep~
GUDNITE KHARTOUM!GUDNITE MALAYSIA!
xoxo
x payah la tunggu kan?
its better for me to have my nap, and watching korea drama till asleep~
GUDNITE KHARTOUM!GUDNITE MALAYSIA!
xoxo
saya gembira!
kakak baik, saya suke kak ima!! *clap*clap*
i found her, yeah, a really nice,friendly 30-years-old-plus working lady! if i would like to describe her kindness, it would be thousands of words, so..i guess let the pictures do all the talking, rite peeps? lihatlah di bawah ape dier dapatkan untuk saya!!
nyum nyum, bole makan nasi dengan enak nya!!
segala makanan dalam tin wlaupun tidak berkhasiat, ttp tidak baik memilih di perantauan ini!
paling penting dan paling berguna.....
i found her, yeah, a really nice,friendly 30-years-old-plus working lady! if i would like to describe her kindness, it would be thousands of words, so..i guess let the pictures do all the talking, rite peeps? lihatlah di bawah ape dier dapatkan untuk saya!!
nyum nyum, bole makan nasi dengan enak nya!!
segala makanan dalam tin wlaupun tidak berkhasiat, ttp tidak baik memilih di perantauan ini!
paling penting dan paling berguna.....am really appreciate kak ima's kindness!! seronok sangat dpt those things....(even tho skang aku dok menapak umah2 jejaka untuk memasak dan terpaksa utk mereka jugak)..hehe..
so next step to do:
1) pindah rumah!kemas barang...hias2 bilik...im soooooooooo excited!!
2) shop for groceries with jijong..hummm, din (not my encik D ok!!) is going back to malaysia and i guess left me and jijong to hang out together..so scandalicious?????? OMG!!
3)..........
4).......
hurm, lain kali la planning lagi...
Encik D is away, going for some birthday party, which u have to pay on your own *weirdo party*..ahha..no one there to chat with me, and to accompany me....haihh
layan www.tv3.com.my lar!!!
hugs&kisses*fly*fly*
-ana-
so next step to do:
1) pindah rumah!kemas barang...hias2 bilik...im soooooooooo excited!!
2) shop for groceries with jijong..hummm, din (not my encik D ok!!) is going back to malaysia and i guess left me and jijong to hang out together..so scandalicious?????? OMG!!
3)..........
4).......
hurm, lain kali la planning lagi...
Encik D is away, going for some birthday party, which u have to pay on your own *weirdo party*..ahha..no one there to chat with me, and to accompany me....haihh
layan www.tv3.com.my lar!!!
hugs&kisses*fly*fly*
-ana-
jangan cari keburukan orang, cuba dalami kebaikan dia walaupun dia sejahat-jahat umat
hurm , too deep rite? but thats how i think, and focus here, when trying to find new friends and expanding my relationship..rappo !! its a matter of accepting other people who has different buildup background,styles of living,and other ways cherish friendship!(gosh i miss my supadupa girls~)
aisha,a sudanese-girl.gosh.am i writing bout her?not exactly.but what i really felt bout her.no doubt,she is a very nice,helpful chap,always wanting to help me here and there.and there's no need to make a fuss of it, but then the way she handles her works and can easily pass to me when she doesnt have enough time to make it, and suddenly expressing her frustration in me when i didnt do her work on time when she wanted me.she's not my boss, she's just a colleague,and only been in the company for 1year plus,which is exactly the same with me!oh my oh my, why cant u do it by ursef?and simply,"fuzi, why u didnt do it for me?i wouldnt need your help if the boss doesnt want it by today?"hurmmmm, am i the victim or the mean girl?
i got a house, finally, today! yeah...i need to re-pack everything(but actually nothing is being unpacked ..all)..i guess i will be staying with those kakak2 who initially didnt want me to be in the same house with them.and the HR still puts me there.hellya~i dun care, and i dun give it a minute to think,i just want to unpack everything and really make myself at home!!i guess, thursday nite will be the very perfect for me to move in to new room!! yay!!! glory glory!!!i smell victory!!
day by day has passed by, and its nearly two weeks me in khartoum, and dun be surprise when i said,"aku makin lama makin suka plak tinggal kt sni"..hihihi...u will never know why i felt this way, unless u wanna give it a shot first!!
thanks to lina for triggering me the sales!too bad, i am not there to enjoy and splurge the money with you..hehe
ADIOS AMIGOS~~
xoxo
aisha,a sudanese-girl.gosh.am i writing bout her?not exactly.but what i really felt bout her.no doubt,she is a very nice,helpful chap,always wanting to help me here and there.and there's no need to make a fuss of it, but then the way she handles her works and can easily pass to me when she doesnt have enough time to make it, and suddenly expressing her frustration in me when i didnt do her work on time when she wanted me.she's not my boss, she's just a colleague,and only been in the company for 1year plus,which is exactly the same with me!oh my oh my, why cant u do it by ursef?and simply,"fuzi, why u didnt do it for me?i wouldnt need your help if the boss doesnt want it by today?"hurmmmm, am i the victim or the mean girl?
i got a house, finally, today! yeah...i need to re-pack everything(but actually nothing is being unpacked ..all)..i guess i will be staying with those kakak2 who initially didnt want me to be in the same house with them.and the HR still puts me there.hellya~i dun care, and i dun give it a minute to think,i just want to unpack everything and really make myself at home!!i guess, thursday nite will be the very perfect for me to move in to new room!! yay!!! glory glory!!!i smell victory!!
day by day has passed by, and its nearly two weeks me in khartoum, and dun be surprise when i said,"aku makin lama makin suka plak tinggal kt sni"..hihihi...u will never know why i felt this way, unless u wanna give it a shot first!!
thanks to lina for triggering me the sales!too bad, i am not there to enjoy and splurge the money with you..hehe
xoxo
itchy!!
no humidity,dryness surrounds me! yeah,well that is the way to live in khartoum. your skin becomes roughened, ur foot cracked, and hell ya all over body soo itchy!! why? its all because of the dryness! OMG! put 1000ml glycerin-based-lotion; 5 bottles vaseline; 3 pots moisturizers;but yet it doesnt solve what you have gone through with the massive changes of your skin!its only a week, and i cannot imagine how it will looks like after a year! oh god, help me! *sigh*
pertunangan abang saya!
bakal kakak ipar mencium tgn emak
ammaar yg semakin kacak!!muahhh
kak sara!!!
abah ku dan hantaran...(aku ade chip in dlm titik peluh menyiapkan hantaran)
dania irinna!!auntie misses u..a lot!!
missed ceremony
its not yet happening, but for sure i will miss it!! =(
nway HAPPY ENGAGEMENT DAY 110109...lovely bro! muah2.... kawin la time bulan september,hehe...
things are not available here.
hye folks, this is not nonsense, but its real!! there's no such thing as torch light and umbrella here.i guess if u bring those things here, people will be sooo gayat!! haha, poor them.
sekitar2 khartoum.
blue nile...
petronas complex...petronas headquaters,khartoum
burj al fateh..
mosque?ape tah name dier....haha
little heart screaming
"nak balikkkkk"
"boring nyeeee"
"takde kawan"
"ssh nye nak makan nasi"
"sume nak kene ckp omputih, bes sgt ke ckp omputih nie?"
"arghhhhhhh kotor kasut akuuu berdebu!!!"
And I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it’s cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
"boring nyeeee"
"takde kawan"
"ssh nye nak makan nasi"
"sume nak kene ckp omputih, bes sgt ke ckp omputih nie?"
"arghhhhhhh kotor kasut akuuu berdebu!!!"
And I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it’s cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
responsibility,your accountability.
im OJT-on job training..for god sake...huhu..but yet, the bosses expect me to and can do everything, yeah i can give it my very best, but then i still need guidance on certain thing that i havent done it before,OMG! i need to prepare tender plan, i need to do bidding, i need to convince the partners on new technologies and i got to develop myself here! how how how? damn....no more CTE here, its just me alone, no seniors..the decision is in my hand! either i will screw it or i finally made it! its something i need to prove, like my boss said "let u be the example for others, let your database be the sample for others, bring in carigali working environment"...walawey.....dis is big...bigggggggggg enough when u first arrived then people started to look at u and "hey this is your workscope, u r the one who should do it"..can i? can i ever do all this? can i produce all the monthly reports? just try ur best! good luck me...hehe...
p/s: i cant still find the toolbars, i bet in sudan there is no such things as picture upload...huahuahua..pathetic ass!!
p/s: i cant still find the toolbars, i bet in sudan there is no such things as picture upload...huahuahua..pathetic ass!!
where's the toolbar?
i cannot find the "upload image" button..nah i uploaded it through picasa web albums and end up having a small picture, but u can always click on it and it directly connects to the web albums!!hehe..more to come...kot..
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is it hard?
its damn hard, to leave home..seriously....arriving dubai was fun..full of shopping complexes, and summore byk la org2 berkulit putih and those mixed cultures...yeah..nice dubai, i like!!!
but then, at 630 pm was the worst ever in my life, touched down at khartoum so-called international airport, but look around u, hey look around man...is this INTERNATIONAL? subang nye airport lagi lawa down, aku tak tipu. ok,whatever la kan. a tall,dark man, wearing white jubah was already waiting for me, with a big sign board PETRONAS FUZIANA TUSIMIN!! yay, there was my driver, even tho he such a skinny man , tp dier larat bwk baggage aku yg 50 kg. nonsense rite? but its true!! i bought 50kg plus stuffs, i dunno what inside it, but all i know i already exceed the baggage (ade ke business class 30kg je)..so dumb!! i need to pay extra like RM3400 kot!! 3k man, darn!!
so..my first impression of khartoum is WHERE THE HELL IS THE LAMPS?JALAN BERTURAP?PEMANDU YG SOPAN?KEDAI MAKANAN YG MURAH? no theres no such things here, darkness is around me.....hahahahaha...and all i can see is DEBU!! nak masuk ofis pun debu.....................sabar je la kan?
but then, at 630 pm was the worst ever in my life, touched down at khartoum so-called international airport, but look around u, hey look around man...is this INTERNATIONAL? subang nye airport lagi lawa down, aku tak tipu. ok,whatever la kan. a tall,dark man, wearing white jubah was already waiting for me, with a big sign board PETRONAS FUZIANA TUSIMIN!! yay, there was my driver, even tho he such a skinny man , tp dier larat bwk baggage aku yg 50 kg. nonsense rite? but its true!! i bought 50kg plus stuffs, i dunno what inside it, but all i know i already exceed the baggage (ade ke business class 30kg je)..so dumb!! i need to pay extra like RM3400 kot!! 3k man, darn!!
so..my first impression of khartoum is WHERE THE HELL IS THE LAMPS?JALAN BERTURAP?PEMANDU YG SOPAN?KEDAI MAKANAN YG MURAH? no theres no such things here, darkness is around me.....hahahahaha...and all i can see is DEBU!! nak masuk ofis pun debu.....................sabar je la kan?
leaving.
My room..my workstation..things to be left at home...
Im leaving..on a jetplane....leaving all the rest...
Including WRU1412..my precious,my gor-jes!!!
second item.
here we go again, moves to the next chapter of my life.
apart from the so-whitey-allstar, i wish i am a star of my own life. i can achieve what i want, and i can grab those thing in a barely naked hand. but who are we? WE just a small human beings, on the earth, sent by Almighty to do deeds, to kiss our parents' hand
the youngest one in family, from 4 siblings, has a moderate living, with loving parents, and 3 cute nephews.....and i have a loving and caring bf! isnt my life just so complete?
but,im just a human being...who always complaining about life but yet i am still thankful to ALLAH for the air He gives me to breath and for wonderful parents i ever got once in my life.
my stars.tho incomplete. [not in the picture : myself, akak, and abg julpi]
from left : abah, abang, abg asri, dania, long, mak, dhia, ammaar
apart from the so-whitey-allstar, i wish i am a star of my own life. i can achieve what i want, and i can grab those thing in a barely naked hand. but who are we? WE just a small human beings, on the earth, sent by Almighty to do deeds, to kiss our parents' hand
the youngest one in family, from 4 siblings, has a moderate living, with loving parents, and 3 cute nephews.....and i have a loving and caring bf! isnt my life just so complete?
but,im just a human being...who always complaining about life but yet i am still thankful to ALLAH for the air He gives me to breath and for wonderful parents i ever got once in my life.
my stars.tho incomplete. [not in the picture : myself, akak, and abg julpi]
from left : abah, abang, abg asri, dania, long, mak, dhia, ammaar
first.
hye.
a blog?
nahhhh...i have my own blog...how cool is that? it never crosses my mind to do this stuff, and i never like my own writings to be publicize, but now here again we are on the web and i am typing something here, something for you to read, and comments! isnt this amazing? is it me writing this or is it just another self-unexplainable-girl whom wishes herself to be understood? hell ya......just type and type and la la la...i have my own writings! yay!!!!
so where should i start? can i even start with a picture? yeah.....
a blog?
nahhhh...i have my own blog...how cool is that? it never crosses my mind to do this stuff, and i never like my own writings to be publicize, but now here again we are on the web and i am typing something here, something for you to read, and comments! isnt this amazing? is it me writing this or is it just another self-unexplainable-girl whom wishes herself to be understood? hell ya......just type and type and la la la...i have my own writings! yay!!!!
so where should i start? can i even start with a picture? yeah.....
