your mistake is my weakness

if malaysia has fall into pieces, it is Najib's weakness.

if all the staff leaving petronas because we cannot be in-to marriage thingy with colleague, its the Management's weakness.

if a friend fails his calculus test because copying your works, it's your weakness.

forgive me if i mistakenly putting them, maybe not in a good manner of phrases. i am just trying to create a scene which is identically describes the title that i already jotted down. as far as life teaches me the good and bad things in the world, i am realizing that nobody is perfect. even you are a perfect creature in your own population, but it is not like you are not going to make a mistake, even a tiny little thing.

we live on the earth by relations, we inter-related to each other, either we planned it to be to, or it is just naturally happened like that. a friend can get away from doing mistakes to you, but sometimes the mistakes just happened to be because of the attitude of yourself. so let's just be humble, and blame yourself first before you could even finger-pointing it to others.

oh ya, just a mumble of the day. still, its a good thing to ponder!!

HAVE A NICE WEEKEND PEEPS!!!

15 minit yang panas

jam sudah tepat 4.50.ada lagi sepuluh minit sebelum tajam 5. okey okey.baik aku pergi clarify things dgn DR nie.

[langkah laju menuju ke bilik section head]

dalam bilik, aku pun kung kang kung kang justify everything. alhamdulillah, at last dia terima.

okey dah pukul 5.03 tajam. cepat-cepat kemas barang. jam 5.15 tajam van tinggal kalau lambat. takde belas ihsan punya. no more dagiga. khalas ques.

barang-barang sume dah pack masuk beg polo cokelat aku. tiba-tiba macam kehilangan sesuatu. masa diperuntukkan 12 minit untuk mencari sesuatu itu.

mana pulak aku letak?

"have you seen my handphone guys?" [mula memecahi serombong udara dalam ofis]

"no we have not seen it. where have you put it?" [okey aku tulis dalam grammar yang betol tp secara realiti nya tak mungkin mereka berbicara dgn berhemah sekali]

"i cannot remember but i knew i left it here. i did not bring it to the DR's room" [muka dah mula panas dan tegang, jam dah pokol 5.05 minit tegang tegang]

"A, what is my handphone number i cannot recall"[betapa gabra nya sampai number hp sendiri tak igt, padahal mmg tak pernah hafal sbb panjang sgt number nya]

"u cannot rememember? XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX"

dialing...dialing...no ringing tone.....no ringing tone..dialing again....silent treatment..

"damn, somebody turned off my phone!!!!"[muka dah tahan sebak]
"all my informations are in there bla bla bla " [mata dah bergenang mengenang naseb tak dapat nak texting dgn Encik D kesayangan,nampak gaya pergi cairo kene rembat handphone baru]

"yeah its true, you know during Mr Nordin's time, his handphone was stolen,and then it was being shut off once we realized it gone missing. im sure your phone must have been stolen!!!'[dah mula dah, depa buat gaya gempak, muka bersungguh-sungguh, palat sungguh aku dah pasrah handphone kene curi]

"let me call Manager Planning, maybe i left my phone there during discussion"

troot troott calling...

"mana ada handphone you kat sini, you saja nak mengorat i kan"[sudah ....anasir palsu pulak keluar, aku tengah berpeluh ketiak nie cari handphone lawak pulak si manager nie]

eh....jam dah pokol 5.11pm.eh ape menda hitam berkotak tebal atas meja aku nie?

"this is lesson learnt for you, next time don't leave it on the table if you are not here oke!!"


pergh sungguh pengajaran betol!!!tak sanggup aku nak maki lebih2, aku hanya ...

"thanks S. you made my day by getting all my nerves to the top" [sambil memukul bahu dgn manja sekali dan giggle dengan comel padahal rasa nak je kasi penyepak hotak kau la lesson learnt]


dan nasib baik aku turun tajam 5.15pm...fiuhhhhh...

to S and A:-
TUUUUUUTTTTTTTTTTTT korang laaaaaaa tak kelakar betol!!!!!![hehs buat-buat emo]

kehidupan sempurna

hari ini tarikh keramat. semua orang takda. aku lah yang kene attend sume menda. dari rig sequence sehingga lah ke mencari tanda tangan. naseb baik pencuci tandas masih ada,kalau tak naya aku terpaksa sental mangkuk tandas pulak.

kerja memang tak menang tangan. di tambah ada 2 "junior" hehs ade junior dari aku wei, tapi lagak tak macam junior. mcm ayam jantan yang ada tajak keris yang terletak tajam je. macam president OAB pun ada jugak. aku tegur sikit, hamboi dia jawab 1001 patah perkataan, konfem kalau buat rumusan nie boleh fail. dia ingat dia hebat. aku pun lantak pi hang la janji kau bahagia.

dengan perangai sekor-skor yg mcm buat palat, aku pun endah tak endah janji keje aku siap. dan efficient. tapi leceh la pasal derang nie tak suke buat hal remeh temeh, macam kene write letter to government pun di katakan susah. padahal dah ada template. disuruh follow up dengan status pun taknak. nak taknak, aku si bedah nie la yang kene jadi segala jenis kuli, nak argue sampai tahun depan pun tetap dia kata tak tahu buat.

mentality jenis ape la macam ni kan? aku doubt sungguh mereka boleh maju. dan aku sungguh doubt if they want to takeover this O&G business. it is just not their time yet, tapi dah bape banyak aku baca mereka tak sabar2 nak halau foreigner yer aku adalah makhluk asing di sini. yang tidak sabar untuk mereka halau dan campak keluar. hek eles macam la heran sangat nak invest kat negara kau!!![padahal reserves dia besar gila woiii]

dan aku tak sangkal la, most of international revenue of petronas comes from sudan operation. so kalau kita bungkus awal..gamak nya macammane ehhh??? oh tidak berjaya aku untuk membayangkan nya....ngerii!!! abes dah ilang bonusssss nantiii...$$$$$$$

oh petronas, i lap you walaupun kau tak benarkan kahwin sesama petronas kahkahkah padan muke junior2 baru. =p

sebuah lagu untuk petronas:


PETRONAS MAJU JAYA
KEMEGAHAN NEGARA KITA
SEMERBAK NAMA SELURUH DUNIA
PETRONAS MAJU JAYA

kasut ini aku jumpe di sudut "FOR KIDS ONLY". hmmm. ori adidas wooooo!!!

podeh sangat. tercirit je rasa.

maaf aku kene pergi dulu

dalam sejarah hidup aku tak pernah aku marah sgt atau dendam sgt dgn org terlalu lama.
kadang-kadang setengah hari dah abes dah marah aku, kdg2 tak smpai setengah minit aku tak rasa apa2 dah. tapi dengan seorang ni mmg dr dulu aku tak suka dia,mcm anti dia lah.kalau disebut mahu gatal seluruh bdn aku,pantas terkilas kat facebook atau friendster dia konfem menggelatar kaki rasa nak kasi penyepak. boleh naik demam h1n1 wa cakap sama lu. kadang2 bukan terkilas pon tapi aku yang kipochi sendiri nak amik tau pasal dia.

boleh dikatakan dah bertahun jugak dendam aku kat dia. ish. ustaz kata dendam ni memakan diri. jadi hari-hari aku cuba bersihkan hati aku supaya tak dendam sgt kat dia. tapi mmg membara. aku pun tak tahu apsal, aku nie sngat glamer dengan short term memory lost, tapi tang dia ja aku ingat sampai bila2. bukan ingat tang yang baik, sume tang yang tak baik je aku ingat, jadi selalulah membara dalam hati ini. ish tak baik sungguh kan?aku tahu tu. dah bertahun aku cuba buang, smpai hari ini, ada kurang lah, tapi masih ade sikit lah kan.mungkin aku rasa kalau dia dah mati konfem aku tak dendam dah.

adakah aku ini bukan pemaaf orangnya? yeah,mungkin pada kes kau ini sahaja. dan pada orang lain jangan lah takut sebab aku tak dendam kat korang pon. kat dia seorang ini je. ahakz.

ok lets enjoy your day without dendam nanti lama2 aku yang binasa sendiri.

so aku bertekad nak bersihkan betol2 dendam aku ini. biar lah aku bawa diri dan buang dendam ini jauh2. nanti aku kembali ya! stay tuned!!!!!

overrated

#excessive black pepper, too much flour, the gravy just so thick that makes the crunchy crispy dory becomes un-crispy-thick-dory-omg-why?..


#what's a round-the-world working(poyo padahal setempat je) if you can't bring the odd souvenir to ship back home?and most importantly the name stamped was for you.even seven parcels were not enough yet.

#you are losing,at the worst case of the battle.you might need to surrender,but is that the right choice?or are you under  estimating your self?

#seven weeks for 67check list-to-be-un-tick and finally cancel out everything.

#and can i just cry out loud "mak aku nak balik" yeap, you can send that to my mother.no,i am not that homey-girl,i am just too lonely and yet i am still alone.

giza is calling.

when it comes to hollow,and emptiness,nothing seems right.the back aches when you try to sit straight with the correct posture. the mind is all around the world when you are trying to focus. the salt becomes sweet and turning sour at the end. and you look to your right and left, only white blank concrete with no family pictures on it. and you turn to someone in front of you, and at the end you notice that actually its nobody. so much to tell with so less people around;you tend to swallow everything inside.its life,you don't have anybody to blame on,or to be blamed; its fair and square.

so here's some pictures to make you smile again, and looking forward for another day in life.




now you can start smiling again. he he he he. tunggu laporan seterusnya!!

KHARTOUM OO KHARTOUM

semalam panas sangat.panas sampai rasa nak berbogel di khalayak ramai.panas sampai rasa nak trnkan aircond rumah tu dan bawa ke mana saja sambil kedekut tak kasi orang lain tompang sekaki.panas sampai rasa nak tido dalam peti sejuk haha padan muka kau daging,ayam korang dok dalam sinki je.

dahsyat sungguh kepanasan dia kan?tapi itu la bila aku merungut orang akan kata itu panas dunia kau tak tahan,panas akhirat nanti mcm mana?alamak,takut nye wei!!!memang wajib takut kan?jadi pergi bertaubat sekarang semua orang!!

tapi arini, sejuk, sejuk sangat sampai terpaksa buang aircond yang dah melilit kat badan aku.sejuk sampai terasa ke anak tekak lalu terasa kehausan (????)..sejuk sehingga kuku menjadi biru...ahh over kan sejuk dia? sebab ape? SEBAB ARI NI KHARTOUM HUJAN UNTUK KEDUA KALI NYA SEPANJANG MUSIM HUJAN INI!!!HOOORAYYYYY!!!!!!!

walaupun sebenarnya tak elok khartoum hujan selalu sebab nanti akan ada pantai bersepah-sepah di atas jalan, apetah lagi menjadikan tanah-tanah sekalian liat untuk dipisah kan, tanah seswai untuk dijadikan playdoh dan dijual kepada anak-anak dengan harga rm50 sekati.tapi aku tak kesah,janji aku berasa sejuk dan tidaklah lagi merungut kepanasan.


(sedih tak dapat nak upload gamba hujan excited macam orang kuno tak penah nampak manik-manik lembut turun dari celah-celah awan padahal orang2 kt negara sendiri tak heran pon dengan hujan sampai banjir terus kan)

bahasa melayu bahasa kebangsaan kita!

aku pergi party farewell smlm.

tepat jam 5 ptg, dah penuh dah bilik gerakan bwh tanah petronita ni.

ramai madame2 yang hadir, especially mereka2 yang tak blk tanah air ,ye tak ye kan, kalau balik malaysia mcm mana pulak nak datang?

bilik penuh, aku pun cari port nak labuhkan punggung, seb baik masih kecil molek dan muat di tengah2 antara kak su and kak lin. salam-salam la akak semua, kang nampak tak sopan pulak, takkan salam kosong je, duit raya sikit kak!!

acara di mulakan, ucapan demi ucapan dilafazkan, ada yang pajang berjela, ada yang kontot molek 2 minit je ucapan nya. sekali harung, kita welcome jugak kpd madame2 yang baru sampai di bumi khartoum nie. ye selamat menempuhi alam neraka!

jenguk-jenguk dari jauh, wahhh banyak sungguh hidangan..semuanya resipi dari asia...perut dah bergelegak lapar, bunyi tayah citer la, dah jadi lagu ahmad jais selamat hari raya dah!!!abes dah formal show, ape lagi, jom kita bedal makanan!! satu mangkuk, dan satu pinggan...zasss!!!

lepak-lepak dengan madame, dan anak-anak mereka.ye anak aku masih di alam barzah. takpe. ade jugak yang anak dan ibu nampak mcm adik beradik sahaja. wakakaka. emak awet muda la tu kot kan. aku dan satu geng madame2 nie bole di kire pelanggan paling last la kt underground perhimpunan nie...layan oren sepam dulu, bak kata akak X.

layan-layan oren, mulut kene jalan, bincang2 aktiviti petronita untuk second half year nie.

tiba-tiba....permintaan berdesup dalam jantung..

"HANG TAK NAK JADI CEKGU B.M KE? HANG BUAT LA ONCE IN MONTH APPEARANCE, JADI BUDAK-BUDAK TAK BORING DGN CEKGU YANG SAMA...HANG BUAT KUIZ,GAMES DALAM BAHASA MELAYU.."

sengih 32 batang gigi aku.

mampukah aku menjejaki jejak langkah cekgu maimon?

nantikan~~~~

blissful friday

ok.fine!!!!i know its my fault for not knowing everything.you can say anything you want, i dont explore, i dont mix with people, i dont know how to live well, but you cant judge me if you are not in my shoes,so just read the damn story and no assumptions,ENOUGH!!! i know there's little thing in your head,yeah you you the one who reading this, telling you that i am bla bla bla bla..kannn?? *i am being emotional*takk pasallll

well,i know, i have been wasted the past six months.but its not too late to realize kan?basically its better now or never.and the friday was so blissful!!! i woke up pretty early, 600 am in the morning.trying to do the morning thinggy, well you know what im talking about.hihi

and to know what i just realized is that there is a spa here, and FREE SPA for every friday girls!!yeay!!! it will be a rountine friday then *mark in the calendar NOW* , just to have 30 minutes on the treadmill*i know there is a gym,tp lembab gila nak start up untuk pergi,hehs*,and enjoy hours in the sauna and spa!! i am so into sauna-spa-steam bath thing,and i am not that gymy-girl.so Unlike me!!! ;p

doesn't life become so wonderful again? and who doesnt like the freebies? hihi.


i gained *kg for the past 2months,so intensive aaa?ish ish,need to lose them a bit, padan la suar ketat je.

mencintai tak semestinya memiliki

bolehkah aku memiliki kau nanti?

aku berfikir.

untuk mencintai kita harus berkorban.

dan apabila mencintai tidak semuanya akan kita miliki.

jadi tak semua cinta itu indah.

kerana kita tidak pasti sama ada akan memiliki atau tidak.

dan kerana itu, aku tidak pasti untuk bercinta lagi atau tidak.

adakah aku akan melepaskan kau wahai sang cinta??

dan beralih cintaku kepada cinta yg lebeh azali dan hakiki??

biarkan aku berfikir lagi.

i am OK!!

no, im not okey!!suddenly i got this headache,been trying to "remove" it for the past 3 hours;i tried to get some sleep, drank a bottle of warm water, slow down the aircond, doing some exercise just to reheat the body, but it seems nothing. and its still there.

just now i am sititing on the bed, feeling homesick and lonely. how i wish mak is here, to ease the pain when i get to lay my head on her lap. oh really, it is so comfy and the feeling will be even better than the past ten days. i can't wait for ramadhan to past, and there aidilfitri will come!! the ticket was already confirmed and i will be flying back this aidilfitri, hoorayy!! biarlah orang ckp aku ni tak thrill tak beraya di overseas, tak kisahhhhh asalkan aku tak menages beraya sorang2...yay2,dapat makan ayam masak merah mak...

but it is like three months away, another 3 empty months to go..*sigh*hell ya, i know i can do it just fine,and i will bare all the homesickness..and my mind will focusing at works that i need to get done before i can finally celeb8 hari raya..yeahh self motivating peeps!!!!

now, i just need someone to blow away this headche...its killing!!!!grrrrrrrrr


but i am not going to cry ok???you are 25 for godsake.

1001 cerita

di suatu sudut, seorang rakan karib melalui majlis pertunangan.

dan si rakan tidak memberitahu,sehingga dihidu sendiri beberapa minggu selepas itu.

perlukah aku berkecil hati?

...

aku menghantar proposal untuk di laksanakan. dan sedikit sebanyak update progress tentang case study yang di dalam proses ini.

"balik rumah u terus tido ke?when i was young, i worked late till 1 a.m,to do all of it by my bare hands, not depending on the software, they just bloody hell stupid machine"

adakah ini suatu cabaran yang aku perlu tempuhi?

...

hari demi hari, makin bertambah bungkusan pos laju untuk aku. semuanya hasil tamak haloba dan nafsu lahanat membeli. dan bulan september menjadi saksi semua itu.

perlukah aku menamatkan pembaziran ini?

...

di dalam pejabat, seorang rakan yang pernah mendiami Malaysia selama dua tahun, mula tertanya-tanya.

"why malaysia is not peaceful anymore?why is the indians and chinese did not get the same previliges as the malays? why the indians are becoming the protest of Malaysian's goverment?"

adakah aku terkelu?

...

seorang atok menangisi dan mengasihani cucunya yang terpaksa di letakkan di suatu tempat penjagaan kanak-kanak sewaktu ibu dan bapanya sedang sebok bekerja di siang hari.

inikah di namakan kehidupan?

i love longg flowwwy vintage dress

so i have been requesting a nice long maxi for me,maybe a vintage one..or a little bit flowery here and there. its just a matter of the design either it fits me right and the length does not forbid me to walk,at least. and for these few days, i am searching for the best one for me, but yet i need to come out for a pick. the brand has never been a problem or a big headache to me,cap ayam ke i leks je ..i just need the right number of cutting oke cutting dirahsiakan nanti ade pulak agensi supermodel nak amik i jadi model sbb aku bz jadi aku malas *gedik* or UK6 or as a petite malaysian, XS or S will do. hehs.

so you know mr D,i am eyeing for two dresses already, and i know you know better what to do next =p ohh so much love in the air~

i know i look a little bit exaggerate wearing a long maxi since i am quite a tall girl??well not really.hihi.

is maxi really suits me? oh caol aku pinjam gambau husband kau jap.....

or

half length wear and knee high boots??wowiee boleh tonggang kude terus niee....note:shikin happy gila dalam gambar ni,sekian.

or

lebey elok je aku pakai macam nie?nampak lebey ke arah 15 thn????

what say you??