that capability thinggy

I must say i was not expecting that hard. Or did i belittled the assessor? I guess i just had brain dead the moment i saw him. Yes the expat whom assessed me last two years. I knew he is not That scary or that strict but questions were just too tricky.

The moment his face strucked in my mind, everything went blank. And blur. Where were the equations?The chemical reactions? Nahh all went to the trash bin and immediately being erased permenantly, i tell u IMMEDIATELY PERMANENTLY. Two key words. Destroyed the hope and chance.

Okay. Thats look so bad right? Yeah but i suck big time in the chemistry. Do you really have the chemical engineering background? U can give a good laugh at yourself fuziana. So bad that i want to cry in front of them.

To the fact that i managed to hit 50% of the big ticket items and trembled over 25% and zero on another 25%.. so that was my answer. Pretty bad huh?

They kept asking and looking at me with total weird question, i thought you already in senior position? Duhh make me one then!!!
Whatever it is the result will be published soon, as in 2 weeks time. I know im going to stuck another year in junior position. Perhaps im not good enough in this line.

Should i just give up?